I walked into my hotel room around 7:00pm
Been livin in various hotels for the past six months,
wonderin if i am a sex - worker , nope,
i am on a tv production that has failed to wrap up
This production has resulted in me being absent from home
for 6 months
my little nephew who was 61/2 months old when i left
for this production has clocked 1, Waoh
On my way home, the prospect of seeing him run into my arms
made my chest swell in pride (i love him a lot)
To my utter dissappointment and dismay, as i arrived home
and stretched my hands out in anticipation, he shrank away from me
My attempt to explain who i was to him worsened the issue,
On his face was an expression of consternation , his eyes clouded
with confusion, running to his momma away from me his
uncle, i could almost decipher a hint of fear
Then it struck me, my absence for six months.... has gotten my nephew confused,
It's sown fear for me in him,
then i began think, "Is this how it is with children who grew up with their father doing..
"the dissappearing act"
Or even those whose fathers walked out on them and their mothers only to resurface,
like James Bond?
Consternation, Fear, Distrust, Confusion, Depression, Low Self-esteem all these ills atimes characterize the lives of children who have bore the brunt of absent fathers and broken homes.
Do i want my children to ever go through these as a result of my absence, or separation from their mother ? The thought of it alone.....makes me shudder....
The confused look in my nephew's eyes still haunt me, more than haunt me i sincerly hope they inspire me to
......be patient with my wife
......always be there for my wife and kids
......protect, shield and pray for my home
As a result, neither single - parenting nor divorce is a choice for me.
Afterall, the greatest gift a man can give his children is to love their mother.
Darling, i love you and i always will, I will be your Knight, Comfort, Shoulder, Support, King and most importantly your friend & teammate.
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